Sunday, 6 October 2019

I will always love you. #WordsMatter

My dearest,

You must have received my last letter some time back, and, as always, crumpled it and tossed it in the trash can, isn't it? Well, what can I say? I know you like the back of my palm! And, yet, here I am, writing to you again (like the fool that I am!) in the faint hope of getting my feelings across to you. Not that they matter to you anymore, but, still...

It's 9 months and 8 days today since you left and not a day has gone by when I haven't thought about you. I keep reminding myself that it's all over...that our life together is a part of history, yet every day, I look for a sign from you that says you will come back to me, to 'us' - the 'us' that was the most precious part of my life.

It's October 6th today, and a few days from now, we would have been celebrating our anniversary - our 'fought-like-crazy-and-fell-in-love-like-crazy' anniversary! Oh, how you behaved like a college kid each October, getting me a gift for each day that led to D Day! 

I still have that chocolate wrapper you got me the very first time you decided to celebrate this day.

 "The world over, people celebrate their wedding anniversary. We will celebrate the day we fought with each other like cats and dogs and then fell in love with each other by night! And, to celebrate this special day, I got you a bar of chocolate. But apologies, my love, coz I couldn't resist eating it and so, here's the wrapper. The way this wrapper holds within it the sinful treat, so do my arms hold within them the most precious part of my life - YOU!"

Ah, October! 

It's really not that time of the year without us stocking our fridge with chocolates to celebrate our special day. For today, I have not a single piece to celebrate with! All I have is that old, crumpled wrapper I keep in my diary. The wrapper misses holding its chocolate. Don't your arms miss holding me?

I will always love you, my darling, even though I know you won't.

Miss you always always,

Just yours

<3

P.S.

It's getting lonelier by the day :(


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I am participating in the #WordsMatter Blog Hop.
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16 comments:

  1. That's a sad one. Sometimes its hard to let go of memories even when you know there's no hope of getting your old life back.

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    1. it is, Tulika! Getting over memories of people who were special to you can be really tough.

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  2. It's hard when one person still holds on to the hope that love will be rekindled while the other has moved on. Your 'letter' brought out the longing so beautifully!

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  3. Awww this one is so heartbreaking Shilpa. Loving someone is just not in our control and neither is letting go of all the memories. Hope this love story can be reignited someday in the future

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    1. Nothing is in our control except how we react to situations. And, knowing that, we still ruin ourselves by ruining our peace of mind. :(

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  4. Sad and heartbreaking that some people have to go through the pain throughout their lives while the others move on easily enough to brush everything aside as if it never existed! You brought out the pain of a broken heart through the most poignant way, Shilpa! Loved the story and must say, await more fiction from you , my friend! You write with such emotion!

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    1. Thank you, Esha! I am trying to do my best and enjoying it very much! <3

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  5. This brought tears to my eyes. It is difficult to let go but sometimes it is the only thing one can do.

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    1. It's often the only thing to do, and yet we don't!

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  6. This was a heartbreaking story, Shilpa. Sometimes it is hard to let go of certain emotional breakdowns and we hold on it as a reminder of what had been, but at the price of our own heartache. <3

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  7. kya love letter hain...now you start writing Bollywood scripts madam....

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    1. Hahaha! Balaka, chaney ke jhaad par mat chadha, dear! :P

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  8. That was such a beautiful piece and showed the longing and loneliness beautifully, Shilpa. Well done! I love your fiction pieces. They are very good. Thanks for joining #WordsMatter!

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    1. Thank you so much, Parul! It's something I have begun to enjoy and look forward to. :)

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