Monday, 29 June 2020

Signs

GO SLOW

I was supposed to go slow when I met you.

How would I know a guy in two meetings over coffee?

Were you trustworthy? Were you caring? Did you love like me?

But there I was - head over heels in love with you when I didn’t even know the person behind the flamboyant exterior!

What was I thinking? Was I even thinking?


CAUTION: DANGEROUS DIP AHEAD

The smoke rings you blew into my face warned me to stay away from you.

 I didn’t heed.

 I silenced the voice that tried to caution me.

The way you held me in your arms—overbearing--your touch lacking the warmth, the softness I yearned for.

I didn’t heed.

How you slapped me when I tried suggesting that we wait till we get engaged.

I didn’t heed.

How you yanked my hair and forced me down because you wanted it that day. I was on my period and it hurt.

How you clamped your hand over my mouth when I cried in pain as you bit my breasts.

I deserved it.


END OF ROAD

Mom says we learn only after we have fallen and broken a few bones.

 It took me 6 broken bones, visits to the ER, and therapy sessions with my shrink to learn my lessons.

It’s now end of the road for me.

I won’t fall for another guy, not without knowing him.

No, actually, I won’t fall for a guy.  Ever.

At least then there will be peace.

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Words: 250

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The above post is written for the second edition of #FictionMonday hosted by my friend, Vinitha Dileep.

Today's prompt: Word promot: SIGNS

Do join in and have fun!


14 comments:

  1. How often love blinds us to all the signs that are staring us in the face. Very interesting piece, Shilpa!

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    1. True, Shinjini. Love is a sick game, I feel.

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  2. This is so thought provoking. The signs are there for us to see, it's just us who turn a blind eye to them.

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  3. That last line "I won't fall for a guy again" is a sad one. One wrong relationship and the faith in love gets shattered for a life time. My prayer for the world is 'May every Yin find its own Yang in this world and settle down in peace.'

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    1. Yes, Anamika. Peace in every relationship is so much more needed, more than love, I feel.

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  4. Interesting at so many levels.

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    1. Thank you, Damyanti! It's something I learned from your Gazette, where a writer shared different types of flash fiction.

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  5. This take is a heart touching one, Shilpa. It's true that many of us brush the signs aside in the name of making compromises and adjustments to keep the relationship going. You have done an awesome job in capturing this soulful story, Shilpa.

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    1. Thank you so much for the prompt, Vinitha! :) I am enjoying this challenge :)

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  6. Wow! That was fabulous writing Shilpa! Hard-hitting! How sad, yet how true that sometimes we ignore signs, however clear they are and fall prey to other sensations.

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    1. True, Kala. All the other sensations take over and blind us to the signs that could actually save us from heartache.

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  7. Sometimes the signs can be so evident and yet our minds would choose to stay blind. Hope she is able to believe in love again.

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    1. SOmetimes the wounds go so deep, one loses all hope and faith in love, Dashy.
      Thanks for reading!

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